May 2011
6 posts
insidejuansmind asked: cge jey out na muna ako goodnyt bye:)
insidejuansmind asked: ah easy lang naman ako:) relax suabeng suabe at mabango haha just kidding po, no ba tong nasasabi ko sabaw hay juskopo
insidejuansmind asked: yousound like my mom, in a nice way, well tama ka again, pero yah imposible naman mag date ko ng madami, its not me.. gusto ko isa lang :) pero la eh
insidejuansmind asked: haha tama:) well may pinaghuhugutan kase:) minsan lang to maging senti kase haha
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April 2011
3 posts
shit-i-hate asked: thanks :)
honestly i have no idea LOL
i just choose random colors everytime so i don't even know - i probably do but who cares :)
honestly i have no idea LOL
i just choose random colors everytime so i don't even know - i probably do but who cares :)
insidejuansmind asked: thanks for following me. i already followed back :) takecare
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“Since we all came from a woman, got our name from a woman, and our game from a...”
– Tupac Shakur (found Stumbling)
March 2011
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September 2010
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the little things.
i spent tonight apart from bb. he went to see his friends and i met up with a couple of mine. we ate, we joked, we played pool.. but it wasn’t the same without him. i missed him.
i missed:
the way he looks for my hand when we walk
the way he makes me walk in front of him if it’s a crowded street
the way he let’s me order first at the restaurant
the way he’ll always...
August 2010
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glass box.
there is this setting i have, one where i can block out everything and turn numb when i need to. when things get rough, when i’ve run out of energy to face up to things, i go to a place in my head where i feel like watching movies over and over to submerge myself in other stories, just to get away from my own. usually people know when i’m switching off, because i switch the films on -...
July 2010
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June 2010
11 posts
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after the storm.
him: i talked about you tonight.
me: oh no. about what?
him: the boys were saying how i have a good chick, a good job..
me: really?
him: yea. i told them i can't see myself with any other chick..
me: really?
him: really.
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annoyed.
the good thing about this blog, is i again have a slate that i can vent on..
i was having a lovely, lovely start to the weekend.
and then BAM. it was over. the niceness and the loveliness. all i got was a measely three minute phone call. FINE! and i’m expected not to be angry or upset. right.
grr. so now i feel great :(
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unpretty.
it’s as if someone turned off my happy switch. it’s one of those days where a bunch of tiny little things that get you down snowball into one and crush you. too much thinking, not enough sleep. somehow my appearance, my lifestyle, my weight and my job ganged up on me and bullied me into feeling sad. there’s nothing actually particularly wrong, but then again there’s nothing...
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the things my father says.
me: are you early shift today?
pa: no i'm not working yet, the other day was just a tester.
me: oh?
pa: i had to apply on the line.
me: right.
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O-O.
hiding behind my glasses today. i used to dive into a pile of films and drown my thoughts in artificial ones so that i wouldn’t have to think about my own real ones. now that i have work in the way, i have to hide behind my frames so that no one can see into my soul.
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he made it better.
him: i told them i wasn't going to go
her: why?
him: because i want to make you happy
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hope.
after moping in my head for a while, i thought about where i was in my relationship. this is where i turn my head to when i hit a wall - to the person that makes me happy when i’m feeling sad. we’ve reached a new milestone now: going on holiday with each other. there’s this thing we have..
‘achievements shared that haven’t been reached with previous exes’.
...
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rejection.
i am consumed by this feeling today. through no fault of the ones emitting it. maybe. i don’t know.. but it doesn’t seem to be any consolation - i want to blame someone. i wasn’t welcomed. and i wasn’t accepted. two separate events that combined today have resulted in my emotional slump. reality arrived too thick and fast and i have no buffer to vent my feelings or feel...
May 2010
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greece.
shit. i’m going in two days and the drama has already begun. even before i’ve left. typical.
